i am nothing.
I have come to the point in my ministry here in Honduras where I understand Paul's heart in 2 Corinthians 12:9-11 where he boasts of the fact that he is nothing: just a weak, sinful man simply undeserving of any glory or praise.
i am nothing.
Sean and I have lived in Honduras for just a pinch over a year. In this year, we have seen great things happen. 52 children have been empowered to change their future with full scholarships to go to school through the Honduras Education Project. The church has purchased a bus that now brings about 80 children to the church on Sundays to worship and learn about the Lord and share a healthy lunch. We have seen dozens of children work hard in our tutoring classes and parents learn to prioritize education in the household, many of which have gone from failing grades to strait As. The youth group that was once barely alive, with only a few very dedicated teenagers coming out each week, is now growing to over 40 youth and has a solid and passionate group of leaders. 5 women who were struggling to feed their children each day are now employed making and selling beautiful jewelry.
i will say it again, i am nothing.
When I think back on this year, I praise God with all I am. Tears begin to fall and my heart swells with this unimaginable joy. This journey is truly amazing. I am so blessed to be here. People always thank me for my sacrifice and my hard work, but this experience is a beautiful, precious gift. I have done nothing. This might not make sense, but all of this has happened in spite of me. The pictures, videos, monthly updates and blog posts might make it seem like our hands are the ones doing this great work here, but please do not be fooled.
i am nothing.
The need in the world is great. The powers opposing hope and truth and love are so strong. The chains imprisoning the impoverished are made of the hardest metal. And I am a 26 year old woman who tires easily, who picks silly fights with the love of her life, who would sometimes rather lay in bed and watch Grey's Anatomy than go to one more church event, who struggles to devote time to prayer and bible study... and I could go on forever.
i will say it until you believe it, i am nothing.
I don't say any of this out of insecurity or self-hatred. It is just the opposite. I am so weak, and I truly have nothing to offer. But the Lord is so good! He has done everything. That is so clear to me. It is the only truth I can cling to. I am a woman who loves the Lord and has been blessed beyond measure. His power resides in me and He is using me to do great things. I truly am nothing, but He is everything. And I have realized that I need to make the world see that. From now on, He alone will receive all the glory and all the praise for all that is happening in Honduras.
i am nothing, He is everything. i don't want it any other way.
